desires, dreams, and aspirations

What is my intention for manifesting this particular desire? Is the intention love-based or one of lack (fear based)?

I think that thus far I have realized how much I have.  I have abundance.  My blessings are over flowing.  I am so grateful for all that I have.  My intention for this is to help people.  To make change in people's lives.  My hope one day is that the monetary system will be eliminated and that we decide to flourish as a people based off of intrinsic rewards.  That we put love above all else.

I will free my family from this system.  I will create a school for yoga for kids.  It will be a private non-profit school to create a new kind of human being.  I keep saying all I need is one when the truth is that my voice was made for many.  I will start my yoga studio and then start my school.  I will then be on TED Talks in 3 years to hopefully change the world.  This is the beginning of the Time of Magic.

Ask and you shall receive!

Blocking Your Transmission

Greetings Bloggers!


So I recently came across a theory as to why some things we ask for from the universe don't come to us.  I have a list of things I have wanted to create in my world and some of them I have, some of them have yet to come.  One thing to remember is that the Universe doesn't have a sense of time.  At least not a sense of time like we do.  Things just happen.  Once you have an understanding of timing with the Universe there are also a couple other things we have to accept or deal with.


Be Specific About Your Request!


One of those things has to do with being specific.  You have to be specific and direct about what you want because the Universe can translate what you want to something totally different if you are not exact.  An example of this is when I was working and didn't feel (from the heart) like working for the rest of the day.  I decided (mental) I wanted to just end my trip early.


I also imagined having a ferry flight to make this happen and maybe some maintenance issues to make the flight unavailable to passengers.  As you know I am a flight attendant and a ferry flight is a flight without passengers to reposition the aircraft to another destination.  The only people allowed on the plane are crew members and other people who may be on the release papers for that aircraft.  Well, I got what I wanted but not exactly how I wanted it.


I focused more on not working than ending my day early.  I started my day really early in the morning, I don't remember what city but it was in Montana.  As soon as we got to the plane we had a maintenance issue that delayed us about a couple of hours.  However, it seemed like this delay would take up enough of our time to get us out of working our other flights.  It turns out the company I worked for had other plans and kept us working the next flight despite our extreme lateness.  We had to work two very short flights to Green Bay, WI and back.  We had a pretty lite load going to Green Bay which meant I didn't have to do so much work.  Hmmm....


After getting the aircraft door ready for arrival to the gate in Green Bay, I prepared to secure the flight deck door once it was open.  As the flight deck door flung on, it fell off and as you can imagine, that is one of the worse maintenance and security issues you could have on a plane.  I thought for sure we would be cancelled and ferry the plane back to Minneapolis.  Oh no!  The company decided to delay us four hours while  we waited for another plane to bring in parts to fix the door.  Are you kidding me?!?!!?  The customer service agents in Green Bay had already rebooked the passengers on our flight to the point where there would be no one on the plane at all except the crew.  Even though we were without passengers, we were not considered a ferry flight as that apparently means we have to pay big mama Delta money for canceling a flight.   Super lame!


So, to sum it up for you I wanted to have a maintenance issue to ferry a plan in order to not work.  I forgot to mention to the universe that I wanted this to happen in order to leave work early.  Since I wasn't specific enough about what I wanted I didn't get exactly what I wanted.  That is how the game works boys and girls.


Feelings Over Thoughts!


Another factor that came into play was that my transmission was blocked by other feelings.  See the feeling and the appreciation for what you want is how you create things in your universe.  The feeling of not working was way stronger than the feeling of getting done with work early.  I totally messed that up.  The main problem was that I thought about leaving work early but never felt what it was like to do so.


Tell Me How You Really Feel...


That is how you block your transmission: by sending other feelings to the Universe that are stronger than what you want.  This is done consciously or unconsciously and I wish there were better words to describe that is a feeling sort of way.  Either way, you have to be in tuned with yourself to send the right feelings.  You also have to deal with some past shit in order to clear up the frequency and that takes a lot of work, especially when you have a past full of issues you have yet to address.  I recently understood how this has been happening in my life with my BREAKTHROUGH.


I didn't realize how strong certain feelings were inside of me let alone how my ego kept those feelings on the frequency for so many years.  I will blog about two themes I think everyone's ego has: fear and being enough/lack.  My ego had constantly been sending feelings of things not being enough of something.  Not being good enough, fit enough, right enough, wrong enough, not enough money, not enough time, not enough food, not enough love, etc. etc.  Think about it.  How many times a day do you have feelings like that?  Well mine came in pretty strongly and enough to block my transmission to the Universe about what I really wanted.


By not dealing with my past issues I was ruining the transmission between my heart and the Universe.  After my breakthrough I felt so much liter and so much more aware.  The key is to acknowledge your feelings as valid because all feelings are.  However, once you acknowledge, you don't create room for them to manifest into something.  You use them as fuel.  You make a choice to cater to them in a way that is healthy and positive.  My intuition has increased and I more easily able to identify when and why I feel certain things.  When you truly figure out the root cause of a feeling, you have reached a another level of spiritual living.  Now taking action to find a place for the feeling is the key.  This may mean to release it or to find a way to make this feeling something positive for your life.


Not too long ago my husband was wondering why he wasn't getting some of the things he has been trying to create and that is when this idea of blocking your transmission to the Universe really came about.  He has buried so many dark and strong feelings inside of him that the Universe is only picking on his strong negative feelings.


The Universe Knows What It's Doing...After All, It's Your Doing!!!


There is one more factor to this transmission thing worth mentioning.  The Universe only gives you what you need.  For all that you think you are lacking, you have everything you absolutely need in order to fulfill your Soul's Journey.  I know some of you are thinking, wtf???  Well, we are not always happy with the truth but we do have to live with it.  The words, "I don't need this shit" comes to my mind when I think about having to go through trials and tribulations.  However, we have to accept that those trials and tribulations are push-ups for our soul; they make our souls so much stronger.


First of all, we are strong souls to begin with by being on Earth.  I have mentioned this in another blog how the most special and strongest souls decide to have the roughest circumstances here on Earth.  Everything we do is to make our soul stronger.  Everything we experience is supposed to teach us a lesson.  We create our universe and we are constantly challenging our souls to do Soul Work!  Remember, it is our egos that have us thinking we don't have enough.  Let's not beat our ego up though, it too has a purpose and is apart of our being.  I have always been a firm believer that God will never give us more than we can handle.


I loved to watch my brother play video games and I always thought every game was winnable.  I was always saying to my brother, the game is going to give you what you need, it is not designed to screw you over.   I wasn't saying that it was set up so that you would win (I remember how difficult the Final Fantasy XII boss was...).  I just knew that everything you needed would be right there in game.  Sure you would lose some battles, make mistakes, go through some resets, and try a different pipe, but it was all apart of the learning process.  There is a reason why you kept making weird or bad decisions.  You did that so you could learn.  That is all life is.  You make a mistake then you learn from it.  If you didn't learn the lesson that you were supposed to learn, then you make the mistake again and again and again until you get it.  Once you have learned the lesson you were supposed to learn, you have to put that lesson into action.  Guess what happens when you don't take action?  You have to play the game again.  That pretty much sums up how life works right there!


So If you looked at this blog and thought, why is she so wordy and skipped all the way to the end, here is a summary of...


How To Free Up Your Transmission!

1. Check in with your feelings to make sure you don't have stronger hidden feelings to screw up your transmission.  This is generally some underlying issue you might not have known was there or refuse to deal with.
2. Once you are ready to transmit, Remember to be specific about the feelings you send to the Universe! 
3. Make sure you are not only thinking about what you want to create; it has to be a feeling!
4. Be Patient; the Universe works on a different time frame.
5. Be grateful for receiving what you asked, like you have it already!  This is true vision and creation! Smile and be happy about it!
6. Last but not least, accept that the Universe knows what you need and since you are the creator of your universe, this is all your doing!

Hope you found this helpful!

Peace!

The Universe works quickly!

Ok, so you know that The Secret has been changing my life. I have requested and thanked the Universe for so many things and I am so filled right now.  I have asked for things not just for myself but for those that I love.  I have felt that my way of living my life now would be too far fetched for some people to understand and without negative judgement.  However, my sister, who I thought was too focused on "The Good Book" to explore other things, surprised me this morning with a very deep spiritually open conversation.  She is heading in the same direction as I am with loving myself and taking advantage of God's wonderful gifts to us, especially the gift of asking for whatever we want and need.

My sister and I were best friends when we were kids.  Unfortunately, at times we neglected our baby sister. I am happy to say those days are over and we are all very close and understanding of each other.  I have always found it easy to talk to my sister.  When big sister got into high school and got into boys, we kinda separated because I wasn't into boys yet.  My sister is married with three children.  For the past few years, she and her husband have had some marital issues and are really struggling right now to show love to each other, partly because they haven't loved themselves properly first.  The ironic part is even though she has been with her husband longer and has children, we are both having the same issue with our men: they don't seem to want to love themselves.

When you love yourself, you take care of yourself mind, body and soul.  I admit I haven't always loved myself well in the past but that is all I want now.  I love me.  For the first time ever, I can say I truly love me.  Every part of me.  I am getting to know myself just as I would get to know someone else if I were falling in love with them.  It is a really good feeling to experience and a great place to be in.  My sister is in the same place now too and that makes me feel sooo much joy!  Now we just need to get baby sister on this page and we will all be more dynamic than we have ever been in our lives!!!  The universe, God, is commanding us to fulfill our paths and use our gifts.  I use to be afraid of that because I have always known that I was meant to impact the lives of many people.  I felt too stressed, too much pressure, not good enough, unworthy.  I feel the exact opposite of that now.  Fear is turned immediately into a motivator!

Anywho, I just wanted to share the wonderful experience I had with my sister this morning.  And well, I don't want anyone to think that I have much against the bible or christianity. I called it the good book for a reason.  The bible can be a wonderful spiritual guide if we use it just for that and not a literal text and man-altered translation that seeks to hurt and destroy people.  Christ's teachings are about love.  Loving yourself, loving your friends and family, and even loving your enemies. I just read some profound in The Daily Love.  "There is a major difference between trying to prove your love and simply sharing your love."  Those words are so enlightening for me.  If I feel so filled with love, don't I have more than enough to share?  Especially with my husband?  is there a bit of hesitation to share this love because I was fragile in the past?   Perhaps so.  I will share this with my sister and we will both continue to pray for our husbands and wish wonderful things for them!

Creating, Recreating, Discreating...oy vey!

Greetings and salutations!  It has been a couple days since I had a huge spiritual breakthrough and, well, all is well in the world.  I will continue on this path for the rest of my life.  Heh, I just found it interesting that I have said something I will dof the rest of my life and it doesn't frighten me.  Actually, it comforts me the way God's presence does.  God is the universe.  God is energy.  God is Power.  God is grace.  God is mercy.  God is perfect. God is me.  Therefore, I am the universe.  I am energy.  I have power.  I have mercy.  I come from grace.  I am perfect.

I have decided to end all worry and stress in my life.  When I look back over my life and think about the times when I let, worry, fear, and stress run the show, I was not happy.  In this mental, emotional, physical, financial, and spiritual state I am in, I feel complete happiness and peace.  I sometimes feel like a work in progress but I am only 27.  I say that not to give my ego the power to decide I don't deserve it now or I have to wait until a certain age to experience bliss.  Bliss is now because I create it in my universe!  In hearing the word bliss these days, I see how I have never really used it to describe any moment in my life.  I guess I secretly thought bliss was a bad thing.  Yet, as a divine child of God, I deserve to live in bliss and abundance!  

So, I am a creator, I have known that for a while now.  I realized that I also created the issues I have with my marriage by stressing and worrying about so much that I sent the wrong desires and and energy into the universe.  Now that I know to send the right ones, I call upon patience to see me through correcting my actions now.   Writing this has made me realize that I wait on no one but me to make things happen.  Yet and still, I still bothered by some things with my husband.  I don't create that in saying it, I observe it.   

Why is it that I can't seem to just let him live his life without being irritated by his lack of self love and appreciation?  Does he not accept that it is him that has placed him here?  No one else can determine your life for you.  I can not determine your life for you and I don't want to.  I realize in my new enlightenment that I don't want to determine how his life goes for him.  I feel an unattraction to him when he sits around and waits for me to make things happen.  I sat around and waited for him to do things that just weren't on his mind.  So, what was on his mind? What has been on his mind?  There were times where I would look at his existence as non-existent.  As if I just imagined him up for what I needed at the time.  A blank canvas.  I don't want a blank canvas.  I want a person who lives for his/herself.  I want someone who knows they decide their own destiny.  I realized as I got closer to me that I didn't like who he was.  Universe, I realize I can create him as I want him, but I would rather he create himself as he wants himself.  I would rather he seek to please himself fully and not half heartedly in the methods he had chosen.  I would rather him do tasks to please himself and not me.  I don't want to be hurt by this.  (You mean to tell me he will clean the bathroom and do laundry if I create it in my heart and mind?!?!?!? But even after he's does it, is it ever enough?)

I have to say what I really want here.  I accept that I have created my environment.  What environment now would I create that would make me happy in this situation?  I don't want to create a person perfect for me.  That person should already exist.  Here is the other issue I have: maybe I have realized I don't want the perfect person.  Maybe I just want me.  Is that what I have created?  

The use of language in this way of living is so important.  You have to be careful to send the right energy into the universe.  Since I am so uncertain, the universe has to try to filter through my mumbo jumbo and pick up on what I really want.  It's not hard work, it's just new work.  I am adjusting to it and I get better and better at it every day.  I have to say my husband is on the same level as I am and feel it at the same time.  I don't hope for it, I create it.  I don't wait for it, it is now.  For a woman who has spent her entire life confirming her impatience, this is definitely an interesting feat to conquer.  Yet, it is already conquered.  See, this is a tricky business, lol.  I am willing to invest though!