What good news today! My dreams have been dark of late (LOTR reference...sorry, had to do it). I guess I learned the unofficial secret about two years ago but I didn't apply it for and not to the things I truly wanted. I am watching The Secret now on netflix and I want to do it the right way this time around. I am not sure why I let myself get to the dark place again.
Did you ever know that you were destined for greatness? I mean, seriously ever knew in the bottom of your heart that you were going to shake the world. That one day you would lead others down a path of goodness for humanity. That there would be something wonderful you would contribute to society that would bring about change. I have known this my whole life and I have been afraid of it. I have admittedly been mediocre. I just feel something so powerful inside of me that it scares me. It's overwhelming. I have always been hesitant toward things that seemed like they were too good. I suppose I felt undeserving of great things. I suppose I have nothing would be given to me and that everything I wanted, I would have to work hard for. That I would have to earn it over time.
According to The Secret I have been doing this all wrong. All the things I want, I can create and the universe will hear me. Now apparently things can get lost in the frequency of transmission so you have to be careful what you think and feel. I have been telling myself and my husband that I have created my misery yet what have I done to discreate it or create a new energy in me? One that is filled with light, hope, greatness, divinity, and love! And why does a fear of failing or not being good enough always creep in on the tails of these thoughts? And where is my faith? True faith! In myself and God that lies within me?
Yesterday I went for a wog (walking and jogging...day one of training for a marathon...maybe I will blog about it). Sometimes I hesitate to wear certain clothing for fear of the attention I would get from the pig men outside. After leaving my apartment I had been gawked at and spoken to rudely by about 3 guys in less than 5 minutes. After wogging for about 22 minutes I stopped to meditate and clear my mind through the sounds of the environment. I felt great afterwards. I felt closer to faith. Nothing could get to me then and would you know that on my way back home I had no gawkers or rude advancements? I realize now after watching part of The Secret that I created all of that yesterday, for the good or the bad. That my fear is a feeling that the universe will pick up on and use against me as I let it. What a revelation!
I am going to finish watching the rest of this film and perhaps get back to you. I am also work on a list of things that I want. This is gonna be great! Epic! Life changing and altering!
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