I'm So Gone From This Crown Royal On Ice

Warning!!! This blog is pretty intense...not in is spiritual sense.  More like scandal and sex... If you can't leave your judgment here, turn back now.


I have to blog about a couple of songs that are running through my mind lately.  I suppose I could write about these songs but instead I'll just leave the lyrics.  In the mean time, why don't you youtube the song while you read along...


Crown Royal (On Ice)


Your hands on my hips pull me right back to you
I catch that thrust give it right back to you
You're in so deep I'm breathing for you
You grab my braids arch my back high for you
Your diesel engine, I'm squirting mad oil 
All down on the floor 'til my speaker starts to boil 
I flip shit, quick slip, hip dip, and I'm twisted
In your hands  and your lips and your tongue tricks
And you're so thick and you're so thick 
And you're so Crown Royal on ice


Have you ever had Crown Royal on ice? I haven't had the actual drink but this other shit that Ms. Scott is describing, I have had and I must say, I might be an alcoholic (just a metaphor folks).  I've been sober for a few weeks.  My sobriety is in question, is in danger.  Why is it in jeopardy.  Well, the next song seems to explain that...


So Gone (What My Mind Says)


You're gonna hear the pages turn.
Let me take my Gazelle's off
Don't want this thing, but can't let go
Even though, I need it so
Your arms they soothe me
But I ain't no game
I ain't no toy
I ain't just brain.
This ain't no movie mane... 
I'm a real woman
Been down this road before
I just need more

Why does my body ignore what my mind says?
I try to keep it intact, but I'm here in this bed.
I need to... listen, listen...

Emotions deep down inside of me
I'm trying to hide, but they keep finding me
I want to lay low, but continuously you do
Unh, unh, unh
All the right things 
So sweet to me
What do I do?

Why does my body ignore what my mind says?
I try to keep it intact, but I'm here in this bed.
I need to... damn

Why does my body ignore what my mind says?
I try to keep it intact but I'm here in this bed.
Again, I'm scared... Again 


And a little Paul Wall....Mmmmm


You got that ocean of soul
Baby you super thick
And I'm the man of steel with skills
Call me Super Dick
I got that technique that keeps you cummin back to back
And I know you feel it all in your stomach whenever you arch your back
I'm a pull yo hair; I know you love that
When I maneuver this tongue, your eyes roll back
I work them side angles; I'm a Kama Sutra pro
Kitchen table down to the flo
Ass in the air while you biting that pillow
Girl you know how I chop and screw
That's what a diamond chip dick do

That's what a diamond chip dick do

Oh my mind says, and my body says something different

Why does my body ignore what my mind says?
I try to keep it intact, but I'm here in this bed.
Again.
He got that thickness, the kind that make you get up makin biscuits with
Breakfast, so gone

Why does my body ignore what my mind says?
I try to keep it intact but I'm here in this bed.

Well. Gone, gone, gone... I'm scared of this love.

He got that thickness, the kind that make you get up makin biscuits with
Breakfast, so gone

And I ain't even thinkin bout the next chick that he mess 


with... so Reckless, so gone


And there you have it folks.  I'm so gone.  To the point where the last line describes exactly my mentality.  I have issues.  I am just acknowledging a feeling that I have.  I am just expressing some shit I'm going through.  It made me ask myself, what is my mind telling me to do?  My mind has made many attempts to stop my behavior while my body on the other hand feels a sickness without it.  It's so different this time.  My world isn't riding on it.  I can go on without it but (yes, there's a but) I don't want to.  My mind says I'll be fine.  My feelings say I want more.  It's a very confusing time.  What am I more afraid of?  With it or without it?  With it....