I woke up today with the intent to have an attitude of gratitude. I began being thankful for another day, another opportunity. I focused on my inspiration board. Yet there's no fuel to this fire. I'm not exactly sure where these feelings and thoughts have come from. They don't feel good.
Today I didn't feel like eating. I'm lying in bed right now though I got plenty of rest last night. I feel so sad. I don't want to talk to CIC. I just want to lay here in my room and be sad. I have a choice. My thoughts have so much power. I can channel my energy to positive things. I can claim perfect health.
I just don't feel right. Something is off. I wonder if it's this nuva ring that I'm on. I seriously feel like this emotional outburst came out of left field. Makes no sense especially since I figured out a lot of issues yesterday. Is this stress comforting to me? I don't need it anymore. I can create the things that I want and need.
Why don't I want to do anything? It's only been 29 years. What am I living for? What is my purpose. I know these things. Why don't I want to live in it? I fear there'll be no time for me and what I want. Why wouldn't I want my destiny? Too much work. Why do I want laziness? I wish I never heard the words, I don't feel like it. Thanks mom. I must shake that off.
If I am to do his bidding then there is no choice in the matter. You say use me lord and then you lay around when there's work to be done. Are you sincere? Do you have what it takes? After 40 miles you can no longer say that you can't. Get up and move.
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