I didn't go to my mother's house. I didn't want to. I wanted to be with CIC. I had a great time with him. His energy is so good for me. Even when I want to push him away his energy evens me out. I want to get use to him being around.
Another issue came up with an apartment lease, this time with my sister. I sublet an apartment with my sister in Chicago and we followed all the proper procedures. At some point after the lease was over, my sister stopped paying the rent and now this company is trying to get the money from me. They have no case, just like that other situation (where my ex boyfriend forged my signature on an apartment lease and didn't pay the rent). I just want it to be over and done with quickly. I want justice to be served. That place had shitty management and now the owner is trying to squeeze something out of me. The messed up part is that they don't have any paperwork. None.
I'm going to Bali in December on a spiritual retreat with my mentor Mastin. I haven't spoken to him in a few years. He got so busy and well, so did I. I am excited to finally meet him and have him tell me about myself. And well, I'd be delighted to tell him about himself too. This trip is costing around $10,000 but I am not attached to that price. I know this is where I am supposed to be and that god will work it all out.
I am moving to Los Angeles next month. I am scared. Everyone keeps asking me if I am excited. I wouldn't describe this as excitement. I am moving in with two people that I love but it still bothers me. There is so much that still needs to be taken care of. I need to change addresses in so many places. Better make that list. Why do I move around so much?
I barely made it out of MCI today in time for my yoga class but I did. I asked god to help me out and he did. I made a decision to be here. I am seeing the ability to create become stronger the more I stay focused on what's in front of me. I have this foolish idea that there won't be any hurdles in the way and no one to speak against me and try to taint my name as I become famous. What a silly child I am! I have to be careful about my circle. I have to make sure I do everything on the up and up. My hard work and integrity are going to propel me toward my dreams. I have to keep god close. This is my mission and his will.
Soul lessons can be exhausting. It truly is a helpful mentality and blessing to be able to see everything as a soul lesson but damn, lately soul lessons are falling from the sky and I am overwhelmed. I know this is all preparation, just like Sparkles said. Everything that I am going through now is preparing me for something. That's the way it's always been in my life and I suppose in everyone else's lives. If we just sit back and observe it all we can learn from it, apply it, and release it.
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